I didn't want it enough, I didn't enjoy the process. I don't smoke pot very often anymore, and things didn't work out with the girl.
I'm much happier now, focusing on something I've always been naturally good at, and things have been going very well. Making the almost the same as I ever got paid as a mechanic - 4 months into the job.
Unless it's really really really really your thing, don't try to be a songwriter. Or do, but don't spend too much of your life on such a dream, you'll have plenty of catching up to do when you change your mind.
I don't regret it (much), but it wasn't the best use of my time.
